Monday, February 20, 2012

I should get real for a sec.

It's been on my heart to share what I'm going through.

I've battled with this for a couple of weeks because I really didn't think that anyone would want to hear what I'm feeling.

But, then I realized that this is my blog and I will share what I am feeling regardless if you read it, hate it and never come back again.

I have been on the verge of depression for about 3 weeks. This past week, I crossed into the dark world of depression. I really haven't ever been "depressed" before so I didn't know what was going on to begin with.

Here's the situation: 
We live with my husband's brother. It was great of him to let us move into his garage so we could save for a house. But, the negatives outweigh the positives in this little living situation. 

We get to save about $400 extra a month. 
I get to spend some time with my wonderful nieces. 

Being in a tiny house with WAAY too many people. 
Getting to a place in my relationship with my brother-in-law where he ANNOYS the crap out of me! 
The lack of creativity and inspiration that comes with living in a state of negativity. 

Needless to say, we are BEYOND ready to get our own place. And we're on our way to that. We are fixing to close on our first home. WHICH IS THE BIGGEST BLESSING/MOST STRESSFUL THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME.

Lately, I have been sad. Jacob and I went through some rough stuff together last month, and this month we are both battling with the lack of creative and positive energy we rely on.

We have GOT to get out of here... soon.


Sarah said...

Sweet, Kylee! I will be praying for you tonight. I know that the Lord has such great things in store for you in your new home and I am sorry that this process has been so hard and stressful. Things are going to get better! Keep your head up, girl. I know that through Christ you can do it.

haleybrianna said...

And I'll be praying for you too! You should NEVER have to worry about what people will think when you put stuff on your blog. If anything, I'll still be reading!
I'm so happy that you are making steps to get out of that tiny garage! That sounds like a rough situation. The Lord has your back. But, I know you already know this. :)

Lyss said...

hey beautiful friend, i know your situation isn't ideal but remember that God has three answers to your prayers! yes, not now and I HAVE SOMETHING BETTER IN MIND! something good is coming your way. I just know it. :)

Jamie said...

xoxo. thinking of you! i know its tough... but there is a end to this tunnel :)

KaciDawn said...

I am sorry this has been so stressful for you Kylee. Like everyone else said it will get better. You and Jacob will look back on this and laugh soon. I love you and if you need anything or someone to vent to just give me a call.

SweetCaroline said...

Praying for ya girl! know that this is also God's way of teaching you something!

Samantha Maloy said...

I will be praying for you Kylee! I know what it's like to feel a lot of things working against you as you seek to think and act how God would want us to. It's hard sometimes! But God wants us to "trump" our thoughts with His words, so don't forget that.

It will get better.

I promise :)