Lately I have been praying for a "purpose".
I know God isn't like a vending machine, so I'm okay with waiting for answers.
Being diligent in praying hasn't been my strong suit.
I'm VERY impatient.
But lately, my impatience has been weighing on me.
I've been getting attacked, and I'm attacking myself.
My biggest weakness is not feeling "good enough"
Here's my thought process:
"I suck today, what's my deal?"
--> (Me answering my own thoughts: "well you always suck, this isn't a surprise"
"Yea... but maybe if I just..."
---> "Just what? Just nothing. You will fail at anything you're trying to do."
I've been afraid to really harness my talents lately.
You see, I'm a perfectionist. (I KNOW SHOCKER RIGHT!)
So when I think about pursuing a new idea, I will stop and think if I can't do it to my best ability-- then why do it at all?
It's this crap that keeps me from really being a powerhouse at anything.
I learn what I can about a lot of things and stay away from being "awesome" at one thing.
I've been thinking about expanding my blog stuff to include some design stuff.
Not like blog design-- because I just "wing it" in that department.
But newsletter, advertisement, and button design.
Here's an example of a newsletter I've done recently:
Where I work, I design a lot of newspaper ads. But I know how to design just about any type of ad you can think of! Here's and example:
Do you think I'm thinking about pursuing something useless? What are your experiences with doubt and "taking the plunge" into expansion?
Any advice is welcome!