Monday, October 17, 2011

Who We Live For- My Testimony

---But Jesus said, "No, go home to your family, and tell them everything the Lord has done for you and how merciful He has been." Mark 5:19---

I'm going to share my testimony. 
This, for some reason, is not easy for me. 
I believe that I should go and spread the truth and love of Christ, but I have a hard time talking about something so so very close to my heart. So, here it goes. 

I am most likely not the first to tell you that I am a screw up. 

But I believed that I've screwed up in the best imaginable way. When I was in grade school I was the "weird" kid that was starting all of the sweet clubs, take the grasshopper club for instance. We would put grasshoppers in our pockets to see who could have one make it out alive at 3:15. (which rarely happened for the story's sake)
I had an awesome grade school experience. i found ways to get in trouble but i still found ways to be pure at heart. (everyone is around that age). I found God when i was 8. I was in a tent that had been used in Africa on a Mission trip with my Miss Vickie. I remember is so vaugely that it upsets me. But so much like every one else, I lost myself not long after that.

I went through about a 7 year haze. I thought that being what every one wanted was what i was supposed to be. I changed, I didnt pray or even think about the most amazing things that God was doing for me! It was that during that grey phase I was Kylee, the partier. Or Kylee, that one girl. Or Kylee, she's all over the place. I was never Kylee the good person who loves any one but herself.
I was sinking so fast that I couldn't tell that i had lost my Purity and my faith.

You know those "control freaks" that think they have their life all figured out? I was one. Control over anything is now humorous. God controls everything.
I moved to college this past July. I felt like i was alone.. and i was. after about 3 weeks of bordom during the summer i had to get a job.

 Little did i know! I met Ashley, and she had this ora about her, it was so awesome. I WANTED to know her, there was a feeling that i couldnt ignore that i had to know her more than just a co worker. I went to her house and I met her younger brother, austin. I had so much fun and these people were unlike i have EVER known.

They asked me what my story was. at that moment, everything came to me. OH NO! i dont even know myself. i told them the concrete basics and that was all.
After meeting them, everything started to make sense, and i underwent a complete makeover. a Melt-up, if you will.

 A fire was in my heart, that had not been there before.
Faith for me has come sortof naturally. As soon as I saw grace and mercy for the second time, it was easy to give my life and my faith to Jesus. 

Then-- I met my husband. 
We say sometimes that we would be incompatible if it weren't for our shared love of Christ. We know that the only way our marriage will succeed is because our God is an incredibly powerful God. He heals broken people. He reveals love in ways that you can't imagine. My marriage is for and because of Christ. 

Right now, I've been in a state of preparation. I feel like God is preparing me for something BIG! I've been praying for a purpose lately, and I can't wait until that purpose is revealed. 

Some days I can't get over how much love I have in my heart 
And I know the only reason it's there is because of Him. 

My love is for Jesus Christ. 
I am saved and loved. 


Lover of Dance xox' said...

This is so touching!:')<3

ji said...

Thanks for your boldness! :)

Siri Natalia said...

Love your testimony! :) amen.

SweetCaroline said...

ahhh.....i love this. thanks for sharing! as a fellow believer, this was super encouraging!

Mrs. T said...

1.) Thank you so much for sharing your testimony! It is beautiful & I love hearing other people's stories!

2.) Your photos are gorgeous!

3.) Love the new blog design. When did this happen?!

That's all!! Love you!!

Judy Haughton-James said...

Awesome post Kylee! My Christian faith has taken me through some difficult times. I am a new Follower of your Blog and on Facebook. Take care and my best wishes to you.

Courtney B said...

Kylee! This is such a tender, touching post! Thank you for being so open and real with us. Your testimony is going to change lives! You are the BEST :)

Sunshine Blossoms said...

I have tears in my eyes. Thank you so much for being brave and sharing your testimony. It sounds like we have a thing or two in common. ;) This was so encouraging to me.

HopeUnbroken said...

beautiful testimony. and beautifully written for the sharing. bless you in this time of preparation. . . for whatever it is that God is calling you toward!

Digger said...

I love the Truth and Sincerity behind this post! Thank you for sharing. I am touched and this helped me on my quest to find out who I am too. Thank you!!

Digger ~xoxo~

Kylee said...

Beautiful testimony! Thank you for sharing.

♥ Kylee Noelle

Ashley said...

Hey, I love you. :0)

Kimberly Bonham said...

What a great testimony Kylee!